Marriage in 2 weeks?

I generally like people...
that is until they fall in love.

I feel like I'm going crazy!
It seems like whenever I get a best friend they always seem to leave me for a boy. Not that there is anything wrong with that, I'd do the same thing for the most part, but I just wish I could find a good friend that's a girl that won't leave me. Bros before hos sorta deal...
It's just frustrating to be best friends with someone who is going to get married soon. Someone who is attached to the hip of someone else. It's like I've been replaced. Again.
She keeps talking about everything that's going on in her life and now I don't even give a crap. I don't get it. Before I was replaced I was always interested in what she had to say but now it's just like I want her to shut the hell up and get married and go away already.
Everything is just frustrating and I wish she knew how I am feeling about the whole thing but I don't think she gets it because she's never been through it herself.
School is driving me nuts. Is graphic design really my thing? I'm not very good at it but maybe I just lack determination and motivation. I know I have it in me I just don't know how to get it out.
Frustrating.
I wish I could figure out my life right now.
I wish I knew what was going to happen. UGh.
I wish I knew if I was ever going to find the one.
I wish I had good friends again.
I wish I felt normal again.
I wish too much.