Angerfied.

P.S.
I'm sick of people in the ward trying to hook me up with their sons.
If they wanted to date me, they would ask! DUH!
It's especially bad when I've never even met the boy and they tell me to move to Utah or something..GAH!
Or when the boy is almost 30!
Or when the boy isn't even "my type"!
Or when I'm not even the boy's "type"!

BAH!

Who am I kidding?
I'm still in love with him..
John will never be him
John will never be what I want in someone
John is amazing
but not for me
I knew that from the start
and now I'm afraid of hurting him
I care very much for John
but he doesn't even compare
it's too difficult
too complicated
sooooo lame.
I just want him.
here.
now.
haha.