BAH!

Who am I kidding?
I'm still in love with him..
John will never be him
John will never be what I want in someone
John is amazing
but not for me
I knew that from the start
and now I'm afraid of hurting him
I care very much for John
but he doesn't even compare
it's too difficult
too complicated
sooooo lame.
I just want him.
here.
now.
haha.