There Are No Rules In Oklahoma.

I'm back from Okie-Poke, the boringest place in the world...well, not really, but close.
Here's some pictures.

No need to explain unless you REALLY want...I'm too lazy.

Okay, ready, set, GO!

Well, I guess I'm next in line to get hitched. This should be interesting...

Ooooooooooklahoma.

Oklahoma is a boring place.

My Beloved Monster...and me.

My beloved monster and me
We go everywhere together
Wearing a raincoat that has four sleeves
Gets us through all kinds of weather

She will always be the only thing
That comes between me and the awful sting
That comes from living in a world that's so damn mean

My beloved monster is tough
If she wants she will disrobe you
But if you lay her down for a kiss
Her little heart it could explode

She will always be the only thing
That comes between me and the awful sting
That comes from living in a world that's so damn mean

La la la la la la la la
La la la la la la

I'm Bad News.

There's blood in my mouth 'cause I've been biting my tongue all week
I keep on talkin' trash but I never say anything
And the talkin' leads to touchin'
and the touchin' leads to sex
and then there is no mystery left

And It's bad news
Baby I'm bad news
I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news

I know I'm alone if I'm with or without you
but just bein' around you offers me another form of relief
When the loneliness leads to bad dreams
and the bad dreams lead me to callin' you
and I call you and say "C'MERE!"

And it's bad news
Baby I'm bad news
I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news

And it's bad news
Baby it's bad news
It's just bad news, bad news, bad news

'Cause you're just damage control
for a walking corpse like me - like you

'Cause we'll all be
Portions for foxes
Yeah we'll all be
Portions for foxes

There's a pretty young thing in front of you
and she's real pretty and she's real into you
and then she's sleepin' inside of you
and the talkin' leads to touchin'
then touchin' leads to sex
and then there is no mystery left

And it's bad news
I don't blame you
I do the same thing
I get lonely too

And you're bad news
My friends tell me to leave you
That you're bad news, bad news, bad news

That you're bad news
Baby you're bad news
and you're bad news
Baby you're bad news
and you're bad news
I don't care I like you
and you're bad news
I don't care I like you
I like you

K.C.D.A.

So today was my last day of work! YAY!
Rexburg is only a week away!
At work I am usually a prisoner to my mind so I have lots of time to think.
Today I was thinking about blogging (haha) and thought of a few ideas to blog about so I wrote myself a note.
Well, now I don't know what my notes mean! haha.
Something about "the theme of my life" and "remembering" and "real vs. fiction"
I don't knowwwwwwwww.
Oh wel.
Anyhoo, Nate gets married this weekend...we fly out in the morn.
Whoopdie doo.
Kay I'm bored now, and I must pack.



AH! HERE'S MY FACE!

My Mikey.

My mom said to me the other night.
"you should marry Michael Phelps. He's A.D.H.D and he's writing a book! you'd be perfect!"


silly moms.



though, he is hott, look at that bod!
yummmmmmmmmmmmm.

The War Of My Heart.

I got a letter from Jordon last night.
I haven't heard from him since May.
Slowly I'm beginning to think that maybe he's not the one for me.
This whole time I've been thinking "Oh, I'm probably going to marry Jordon." But now I just don't know.
I've always been so sure that he could possibly be it, once we tried.
He seems to be holding back a lot in his letters, and being a stupid boy.
It could just be the missionary in him, or it could just be his changing personality.
I think somewhere along the way I may have built him up in my mind a bit. That sucks.
I wish I could serious find someone, anyone.
Well not just anyone, you know what I mean..
I meet random people almost every day; whether it's myspace, facebook, work, on the streets, at parties, through friends, you name it!
They tell me I'm pretty, that I have a great smile, my personality is so amazing and vast. If they're girls I usually get the response "if you were a boy I'd marry you"..or.."why can't you just be a boy." And yet, I'm alone.
I guess i bring it upon myself. I could totally see myself loving the boys I meet, but I wouldn't have reached my full potential. I want my dream guy, and usually those people are lacking. Lacking in something, that sparkle, that shine.
And so I guard myself, hiding my heart because without that sparkle, what's the point. I know it won't go anywhere...so I don't even try.
ahdsjkol,mb ndfsioajoklfjdi dspaiois dffjdfsaokdfapoidoaisd ijsdfaod LIFE IS HARD AND COMPLICATED DANG IT!

and i am waaaay too picky. i cause myself to be lonely. its all my fault. ohh well.

Religion Don't Matter.

I watched a Muslim girl pray today.
Not in a creepy "what is she doing!" way, but just a simple wishing to be that devoted to a God type of way.
I work with bunch of Muslims and honestly, they are super cool and super nice and super funny.
In high school I was always afraid of them. Mostly because my best friend liked to pick fights with people and those girls usually were the ones she would talk trash about to provoke.
It's interesting to realize now, that they are just human beings like the rest of us. Just because they dress a little bit different doesn't make them anymore monsters than a kitten.
I actually think it's sorta cool that their religion is so important to them that they aren't afraid to stand out amoung a crowd.
I guess in a way they are similar to us latter-day saints.
Anyways, the prayer only lasted a few minutes and it was so cool. She just merely kneeled down in the corner of the room and did her thing then got up like nothing happened, like it wasn't strange or anything.

Well, now I've been distracted and I've forgotten where I wanted to go with this, but I guess to some it up, I'm jealous of the devotion Muslims have to their religion and that they are okay in my Book. HA!

I Love Seattle.

It is true. No matter how much my life isn't here anymore, I will always love Seattle and keep a special place in my heart for it. It's just a cool town!


Mom, Dad, and I went downtown today, after I went to work for a bit, to go to 'Summerfest'.

Honestly, though, it wasn't all it was cracked up to be.

First we went tried to go to Ivar's on the pier to eat lunch but they raised their prices from like 5 or 6 bucks for fish and chips to like 9! Way to rich for our blood. So we walked up the street to our favorite little hole-in-the-wall Thai resturant and ate there, delicious!

Then we made our way up to the festival, or lack there of.

They have kind of a small street fair in the plaza in the heart of downtown and there are usually some really cool sand sculptures there. But this year, well, sucked. I've seen pictures of previous years and they were WAAAY more amazing than this year's. Here's the best one...and honestly this can't even compare to the ones from previous years:

(this is supposed to be all one photo but the sculpture was so large i had to take several)

Then after the dissapointment of 'Summerfest' we began walking down toward the waterfront where we were parked and we decided to walk through Pike's Place Market on the way. I love Pike's Place, it's such an interesting place to go, though it's always crowded.






On one of the corners outside the market there was this street performer, he was so cool. He was hula-hooping, while playing his guitar, singing, playing his harmonica, dancing/twirling, and he also had jingly-clacky noise maker things on his shoes! It was insane! You don't see that every day! haha!



Well dispite the dissapointment of 'Summerfest' it is always entertaining to visit downtown Seattle. With all the crazy people, random events, and livelihood of such a unique city, you'll never know what to expect. It's never boring that's for sure!

An Allergy To Consciousness.

-I promised Stacie a new post.
-So here it is.
-5 days of work left. Plus 1 day of over time on Saturday.
-A week til the wedding.
-I'm excited for school.
-Not for homework.
-My mom and I are writting a book together.
-It's pretty epic so far.
-But sadly, because of its complicated plot, it's going to take like 5 years to write.
-I'm determined to lose like 30 pounds by next June, we'll see how that goes.
-It's going prett good so far, so that's good.
-I miss having a best friend.
-Or friends in general.
-I need to get back to Rexburg ASAP.
-All ABBA songs are now offically our family's theme songs, according to my mother.
-We're learning all the words to "Dancing Queen".
-It's funny.
-Okay I think that is it for now.
-Love you bye.

Some Pics.

yes, yes, they are finally here....and out of order, because, well, blogger is the worst place in the entire world to upload and post your pictures to, it took for ever and it's out of order, and it's late, and I have to work in the morning, and I just plainly don't care. so....here's some of my summer so far:

this is scotty wakeboarding at the lake in seattle

and chace doing a flip.

laura and matt got engaged.


chace and i on the ferry crossing the Pudget Sound to Bainbridge Island.

and Rivka too!

the view from the ferry, pretty huh!

chace wakeboarding more..
and Nate doing a flip.



laura and i at the zoo.


this is the big tree we used to go to a lot when we were little, it's seriously HUGE and it survived a giant fire a long time ago...

see how big it is!?

at the Thai resturant we like to go to in downtown seattle




my favorite people!


some sunsets at the dunes..


rauland, my/stacie's boyfriend.


sobe bomb.


ashley getting sand in her pants.






scotty graduating high school.


me being a gangsta at ali's in provo, getting ready to go to the club that we never could find...sad.


we so hood.


I MISS MY JEDI BRAID!


dune jumping fun.

nate and heidi will be getting married the 30th of august.










THE END.

List.

1. It's 4;46 am. I have to go to work in an hour. Boooooooooooo.
2. My mom and I saw Mama Mia last night. It's the most amazing awful movie you will ever see. Good for a laugh though for sure.
3. Also, for some reason she wants me to start writing a story. So last night, as we sat on the floor in her bedroom, we started coming up with a plot. So far, it's actually pretty good. Just have to work out the details.
4. I promise, promise, promise to update with pictures and whatnots of my summer either tonight or by Sunday, for sure.
5. Nate's last night here is tonight. He get married next week! YAY!
6. Scott is starting to get ready for his first semester at school...how cute! hhahah.
7. I start work at school on the 4th, boooooooo.
8. I haven't heard from ANY of my missionaries since like May. SAD!
9. I love my friends.
10. Time to start getting ready for work, yippee...that was sarcasm if you didn't heard the tone in my "yippee".

Love.

I was going to update.
but then I got bored of it.
So I'm not going to. Haha.
Maybe next time.
Seriously, I was going to post pictures, but it takes too long...and now my motivation to update it gone. Oh well.

LOVE YOU!

Never, Never

There are certain times when I'm browsing old pictures or wandering around on facebook when I think to myself, "Man, I wish I was like this again." meaning, like my old self again. I remember how much I didn't care what people thought about me and I did pretty much whatever I felt like because of it. Now, I'm not saying that people's opinions control my every step nowadays, but little tidbits of society's opinion of what is acceptable has finally seeped into my little brain after all these years and as a result, the new me. I don't necesscarily hate the "new me" and I don't think I'd really even say it's "new" more like a "revised version of the me." Yes, yes. But, still, anyways, as I was saying, some times I just wish I could go back and have the same mentallity I once had. But then again I would probably have the same friends I once had and the same issues I once had too and the world would probably be a darker place because of it all (my sunshine definately brightens things up of course...hah). I think it's human nature want to stay the same and never change, but some times you just have to. It's part of growing up. It's part of life. And life is tought some times. But in all honesty, "the revised version of the me" is way cooler than the old me.

Portions Of Foxes

I keep saying I will soon update with important things such as pictures and whatnots soon, but I am feeling very lazy this 7 week break and have no motivation to do such things in the near future so I guess the pictures and memories are for my eyes only until other wise told.

Anyways, I downloaded a bunch of music since being home (0kay not a bunch but a decent amount) mostly more of the bands I currently am in love with and a few others I found during some of my internet adventures in browsing random places.

Here are just a few bands I'm REALLY into at the moment:
Rilo Kiley (of course...they're my fav!)
Of Montreal
The Hush Sound
Sufjan Stevens
Frou Frou
Ronnie Day
The Eels
Sia

Here are some I'm currently getting more into:
The Pixies
TV on the Radio
The New Pornographers
Neutral Hotel Milk
Mates of State
The Decemberists
Bloc Party
Cat Power
Broken Social Scene
Badly Drawn Boy

That's just to name a few...
hmmm...
yes.
I love music.
I've actually been thinking about writing songs again, but laziness keeps seeping into my life at the moment so I don't know if that will happen soon or not, we shall see...

BFF

i need a new best friend. it seems like having a best friend makes me more sane or something. maybe its the fact that i focus on them instead of myself. but i like it that way. id rather be figuring out their problems and their life, rather than my own. or atleast i think i need someone to share my problems with so that they dont keep bottled up inside me like they are right now cause im about to explode. and its not that i have real bad problems, just saying certain things aloud helps relieve my anxiety over it all. like logan and traci going on a date the other night. what the...even though i dont like logan the way he likes(liked?) me, i almost feel jealous about it cause he asked her out instead of me, but i guess thats what i get for rejecting him, now traci on the other hand, what was he thinking!? he could do so much better than her...but whatev i guess, i knew it was coming anyways thanks to good old facebook keeping me informed on such things haha. its weird, reading conversations between people i was once really good friends with and aren't anymore, i get sad and long to be their good friends again and then i remember the reasons why im not that good of friends with them anymore...i guess thats what growing up and progressing in life does to you. its hard sometimes. but oh well..Also, John has a new girlfriend. And while I'm so happy for him and totally think she will be "the one" and really good for him, I just miss having my best friend there all the time, ready at any moment to come to my rescue and keep be entertained. i know i failed on that relationship and it sucks. it was all completely my fault that we aren't even friends any more and i hate that. i wish i could have told him everything that was going on. i knew he liked me, even when i was dating his brother. i knew he liked me after it as well, and yet i still continued to lead him on while being his best friend. as much as i miss that relationship, it was a lot of work and hassel to be honest. so i guess with everything in life there is a push and pull in some aspect. on one hand i miss john's friendship, on the other hand i'm relieved i don't have that anxiety anymore. speaking of anxiety, whitney called me the other night at like 1am. it was only like a one mintue conversation but nonetheless it was both good to hear from her but also worrisome (as always). she called crying and apologizing for dissappearing from everyone for a few months. i told her i was worried and that its good to hear from her and that i wanted to see her while i was home, but then something happened (in the background i think) she panicked and then said she had to go and hung up on me. i really wish i knew what was going on in her life. there is so much i want to say to her and so much i wish she'd tell me. sigh, life is crazy. people are crazy. yet, i still love it. and them.

Merrie Melodies

I stumbled upon this tonight, thought it was fun :)

1 - Go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random

The first random Wikipedia article you get is the name of your band.

2 - Go to Random quotations: http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3

The last four words of the very last quote of the page is the title of your first album.

3 - Go to flickr's "explore the last seven days" http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days/

Third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

Put it all together, that's your debut album.

My results:

Name - Merrie Melodies

Album - "it does not exist."

Picture-

Well, that was fun though.

I am officially going crazy.